Today is Valentine’s Day. How many of us are alone today? I’ll be the first to raise my hand. I’m 20 years old, and I have never had a valentine. Well, at least a male one, that is. I have no problem getting together with my girlfriends to eat ice cream, watch movies and make fun cards. This year, I’m babysitting actually. I don’t Love-day. I think it’s wonderful to have such an easy opportunity to share your love with people you care about. Whether that is romantic or not, shouldn’t really matter. Why should people feel pressured to have a “valentine” (meaning a romantic interest for the day). Unless you are already dating someone, or married, or are very soon to start dating someone, just have fun with your friends tonight.
Love is a very serious thing. It shouldn’t be thrown around lightly, and romantic love should be very carefully placed. I’m a Christian woman, and when I fall in love it will be with a Christian man. That’s just how it’s supposed to be. I have hurt someone because of that. There is a guy, J, who cares about me a lot, and he likes me for me, which I think is great. I also feel a connection to him on some level. I can completely be myself when I talk to him. But he’s not a believer, and it’s upsetting that someone so great could be so lost. J gets angry and confused when we talk about my faith. He tends to turn to insults, and tries to cut me down, make me question myself and my relationship with God. It’s funny actually (although I would never, ever tell him that) because someone on earth couldn’t possibly destroy that relationship. It’s solid, it’s there, and it’s never going away.
Now T is another guy. He goes to my school. He’s friends with my friends. I guess I would say that we’re friends. I guess I would also say that I have a teeny, tiny, itty, bitty crush on him. He’s funny, musically talented, and he’s striving for God. It’s amazing to see him develop just over the past few weeks of this semester. To hear him openly talk about doing things for God, and to see him attending worship and small group is really fantastic. It makes me so happy. On top of the funny, musical, Christian thing….T is also really, really cute. His whole family is very attractive, so that’s pretty intimidating. I’m not getting any hopes up. The attraction/crush or whatever, is really just that, a passing crush that I’ll get over. I know God doesn’t want us together, and that’s why we’re not.
I also now that God knows exactly who and when I am going to marry, so there’s no point in worrying about boys at all. I’m proud of myself, who I’ve become with Christ, and how I’m continuing to grow. Honestly, the last thing I need is a man right now. But it wouldn’t hurt, right? haha
Anyway, enjoy your Feb 14
Bye for now!